punch a mirror then make out with the pieces 

climb something tall and throw yourself off, repeat ∞ 

jump on your bed so you headbutt the ceiling 

chestbump an electric fence 

have a veryhot shower then roll around on gravel 

chew rocksalt and gargle with cheap booze

wrestle an angry dog

 pick a fight with a built neonazi 

 wander round estate housing yelling about drugs 

find used syringes and suck on them  

stab yourself with a rusty belt-hole-punch 

 run barefoot through a carpark to a playground full of tanbark 

 climb a tree in your underwear 

 fall get up do it again 

 line your clothes with sandpaper and go for a run

collapse

my room stinks my heart stinks my life stinks
talking in self pitying circles
a circlejerk of worthless despair
making me hate myself evenmore
arrogant selfimportant worthlessness
sadness fuelling itself
snowball of disgust
hiding and pushing in
hatefuck headfuck
sucking the bullet
banging against fuck all
drowning in nothing