I miss you. I know it's been a year. It sucks that you're gone and I wish I was stronger. I don't even know why I'm writing this. I'm so sad. I think of you often and usually it makes me smile. but a year it's just hurting today. I wish we had done something last night to mark it that was more of a gesture, like setting fire to something or smashing something or building something or pushing a little boat out into the sea. but it all went wrong and we were flat and sad and tired. we love and miss you though. I wish you weren't gone. shoulda been me instead, you weren't just wasting your life like I am, you were really living and I loved that about you. I don't lknow what else, I don't know why i'm saying any of this, but, Love, always, lizzi xo