{feeling trapped again%weighing myselfworth^against platonic sweathearts and badbogan cowboy dressupkids#praying for sleep-then remembering I don't believe in anything|needing work%needing sleep^needing to run#needingto stop running from myself|whathave I gottenmyself into%wish I wasn't sogutless%I've relocated myfocus to avoid telling someonesomething and I'm shootingmyself fullo buckshotdoubt and shootingmyself inthefoot intheface inthehead^)